Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror
Well this is the last one! And probably one of my worst. I apologise to anyone that follows me, or just so happens to see this.
Dear my reflection in the mirror,
I can’t really see anything good about you.
Your face is horrible. Gross skin thats starting to get worse again.
You’re stupid. You’re such an idiot its unreal. Yeah everyone kids around about it but at the end of the day you’re annoying. You annoy everyone. All your friends and your family. Yeah you kid around with your friends about it too, but there’s only so much you can take. Even though you do find it funny at times, sometimes its just too often. Too much. Too much of a stupid idiot who can’t do anything for himself.
I mean look at you. You’re going to fail Graphics and you don’t even know what you’re doing for your Textiles exam yet. Thats hardly going to get you the two B’s and a C that you need for university. So yeah, you’ve fucked yourself over there haven’t you?
You’re so weak and pitiful. Just get over yourself and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Like its going to help. Like anything you ever do helps.
It was all your fault, what happened.
You should have tried harder. Been more insistent. Shouted. Screamed. Walked out when you had the chance. Done SOMETHING.
But you didn’t
You should never have trusted him and now look where its got you.
Laying alone letting it haunt your thoughts every single fucking night.
Because you were such a stupid, naive little boy to trust him not only in the first place, but trust him again. Trust him enough for it to happen THREE times.
And you were such a wimp. You were so scared that what he said would happen was true, that you never told the one person that truly mattered. And now he STILL doesn’t know almost 3 years down the line and you can never tell him.
You deserve for it to haunt your mind at night.
Its never going to stop. And you deserve it. Ever last little bit of suffering, because you were too weak to do anything to stop it from happening.
You stupid, ugly, idiot, weak, naive, little annoying boy. Its all your fault.