For the anon that asked who my tumblr crushes are, from first to last:

minipopkids
x3
purifyminazuki
eriiampora
diaryofastrangeman
01000110010101010100001101001011
orgygami
lewisbench
heartscanbreakbutlifegoeson

:)

Day in the sun ^_^

I GOT THE JOB

I am now a proud member of M&S :3

M&S Interview today! Wish me luck! :|

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Dear person I like,
Simply put, you’re amazing. You’re lovely, you’re kind, you’re funny, and you’re intelligent too. You made me smile. An actual genuine smile, before I figured out how to do that myself again. You make me laugh. You make my stomach go all funny, and my head go all fuzzy.

But. I know that I could never make you happy. I’m glad that you are happy right now. I’m glad that we’re friends. And, i’m just happy to have that. I wouldn’t want to risk changing that because I couldn’t bare the thought of anybody getting hurt unnecessarily.
I’m so glad you’re happy :) And i’m so happy to have you as a friend :)

Sam 

So poor I may have to take up prostitution. Any takers?
So poor. Omg.

OH GUYS.

Today is my 9th day of not smoking.
I had my last fag on thursday at like half 8 before uni.
I haven’t even wanted on since then. Like no cravings or anything.
Sure i still see the appeal in smoking. But i don’t want one or feel like i need one.

Even when, on friday, i was a drunken emotional wreck, i did not want a cigarette. I just wanted fresh air to calm me down :)

Pretty proud of myself :P

Very sunny today :3

I cannot understand how some people just can’t be nice.
Like. It doesn’t cost anything. At all.
Sure when people are being arseholes, give them hell.
But when you have no reason not to be, why be anything but nice?
I can see no point whatsoever in being unnecessarily rude and/or mean.

People tell me i’m too nice.
But really, i just think the world isn’t nice enough.

I mean, what if the world decided to stop bitching and being dicks to each other for just a moment, and chose to be nice for once instead?
Well…that just sounds like a world i’d actually like to live in.

My best friend from school is getting married in June 2014.
I’m soooo excited.
But at the same time its scary.
I mean just yesterday we were 15, causing a rampage around school being complete fucking idiots. Rushing to take out the various piercings before the RS teacher saw us. Walking around with folders on our heads.
Throwing books at each other in the library and pissing ourselves laughing at something that probably wasn’t even that funny.
Just yesterday we were 15, and we couldn’t wait to grow up.

And suddenly, we’re 19. We’re 19, soon to be 20, and she’s getting married. She’s going to be starting a family.
We’re not kids anymore.
I don’t think i’m ready to grow up. Not just yet.
Its times like this that makes you think, maybe Peter Pan was the one who had it all figured out. Maybe he was the smart one.

Its just scary, you know?

After a break down I think the worst bit is just the embarrassment really
I just feel like a dick
I feel pathetic and stupid
And I really wish nobody had seen me in that state
I wish I could just manage to keep my shit together for longer than 20 minutes without worrying about the slightest thing tipping me into a emotional wreck
I’m a fucking mess and it’s embarrassing.

Going from feeling on top of the world, to rock bottom. I knew this would happen. I knew this wouldn’t last.

I hate this. I just want to be better.

Me as a parent

Me: yes, your "friend" can stay over as long as he's cute

Son: dad for the last time i'm not gay

Me: awh. I remember the good old days when i thought that too

Son: But dad i'm really not gay

Me: yeah whatever, that doesnt matter to me if you are or if you're not. but here's some condoms just incase you and your friend do decide to get down and dirty

Son: DAD OMFG

Me: hey better safe than sorry. oh and remember that nice underwear always does wonders

Son: DAD

Me: HEY ITS IMPORTANT YOU KNOW THESE THINGS

Son: IM MOVING OUT

Me: love you too and be safe. dinners at 6 <3